One can have experienced great tragedy, and not be tragic. Being happy in the face of great sadness is the best revenge for being made to endure it.
If you’re reading this you’re probably wondering… who the fuck is this bitch? And why the fuck would I want to read her blog?
I kind of like my use of swearing to start my first ever blog post because it sets the scene for what’s to come. You can expect (as my Instagram Bio currently reads) a brutal, honest account of my life – food, fitness, body image, relationships – and everything else in between.
If you managed to get this far, you’re probably still wondering who the fuck is this bitch? And why the fuck would I want to read her blog?
I’m Alana, a Personal Trainer and Online Coach based in Brisbanes’ Bayside. I live with my fiancé, Mitchell and my two fur-babies, Lilly and Tasha. I am creative and I love to cook. I’m an off-season Bikini Competitor adjusting to my not-so-shredded ‘fluffy’ physique. I am very open and honest and tend to over-share. But.. I think to really understand who I am now – you need to understand who I was.
3-4 years ago, I struggled with serious depression. I started to see a psychologist and I was prescribed anti-depressants. They changed my life, temporarily.
My depression yo-yo’d almost as much as my Health and Fitness and before I knew it – I’d gained 20kgs. I remember looking in the mirror one morning and thinking, holy shit, when the hell did this happen? It was at this point I noticed the strong correlation between my Mental and Physical State. Whenever I ate like shit (and I mean, eating-a-few-packets-of-two-minute-noodles-for-breakfast-shit) and avoided exercise – I was miserable. I was trying to fill a void in my life with food, and when nothing changed, I would eat more – as though by some miracle maybe this time it would fix something.
After a discussion about this with my psychologist I created an Instagram Account – Good Mood Fitness and Food. My goal was simple – to improve my mental and physical health through food and exercise. I had no idea that one day, I would have the opportunity to help women all over the world to do the same. Today, the account has close to 10,000 followers who have watched my life unfold over the last few years. They have seen me transition from a ‘clean eater’ to a ‘macro counter’. They have watched me transition from ‘cardio’ to ‘weights’. They’ve seen my body change from 20kgs overweight – to a teeny tiny bikini competitor – and now, they are watching as I try to find a comfortable body somewhere in between.
So… who the fuck is this bitch? I guess we’ll find out.